I can't believe Momo is ten days old today. I don't know where the days have gone. What am I saying, yes I do. The days are filled with logging our breastfeeding sessions and dirty diapers and I can't explain the pride I feel every time she poops. It's incredible to me that this:
And that suddenly all that happened in the past is starting to take a different shape. Genetics don't matter, that I feel for sure. And my perspective on the agony Noah and I spent deciding what to do next is starting to shift a bit. What matters most now is that Momo eats and poops. I'm still trying to decide what my birth story means, and I'll spend the rest of this week writing more about it. From the comments, it sounds like many others have had traumatic births and as I slowly roll out of the fog here, it will be interesting for me to explore that a little. All that's important to me is that she and I are both ok, but there are moments where I think about laying helpless in the hospital bed after a blood transfusion, crying hysterically that I wasn't able to hold her. My memory is splotchy but the feelings are there.
Anyway, a few housekeeping notes today. I'd like to continue to write this blog. Though I understand that I'm officially off IF Island and that baby talk can be super annoying to anyone still in the struggle, I feel like perhaps we can all transition together. I also feel like the comments from former IF Islanders provide a sense of hope and good information, so I want to keep that going.
What I'm thinking is to write about pregnancy and parenting after IF and about Momo on Mondays. Momo Mondays. I'll cover topics that are related to her and to donor conception and the unique issues that might arise with parenting after infertility and having a new baby in general. But on Friday's I'll do my best to be IF specific. Flashback Friday's to the years Noah and I spent on IF Island. I'll try to post more video from our documentary, One More Shot, and I'll encourage more dialogue about infertility in general. Anything I write in-between will be random.
Does that sound like a deal?
And speaking of our documentary, we have ONE MORE WEEK to raise the funds necessary to create a polished feature length film. Our fundraising efforts got derailed by me blasting a human out of my privates a week early, so we need your help to get back on track and make this final push for our Indiegogo campaign.
Thank you all for all the love and support and for the thoughtful comments. It means so much to Noah and I. Sending lots of love and hopefully hope to anyone out there still in the fight to find your family.
FILM WEBSITE: www.onemoreshotfilm.com