Are we still saying happy new year? So I've been a little MIA because I'm struggling to figure out what to do with the blog moving forward. I've been blogging since 2013 and I so value and love this community. Writing and sharing really saved me and connected me to a group of people--warriors-- who helped me learn the real meaning of love and family. My writing was the coherent and sometimes not so coherent thread in the chaos that was my "journey to parenthood," and now I'm intent on helping others navigate theirs. Thats' what I do in my private therapy practice, and I love my work and feel so grateful that other people allow me to be a part of their process.
I have the understanding of what living on IF Island is like and the gift of retrospect. I really say gift because while my time on the Island will always be a part of me, I can gladly admit that the farther I sail away the less raw it all becomes. Chasing Momo, now almost 22 months old, also makes the past less raw. There are days I look at her and can't believe I got so lucky. She was waiting for me in a freezer for four years-- I just had to find her. And everything we went through, the procedures, the "failures," the time, the money-- all of it led us to her. There are moments where I get choked up because I can't believe the path we took and the kid we got. And I always say I would do it all over again ten times if I knew I'd end up with her.
But that leads me back to the blog and my desire to write and share in a meaningful way. I'm not sure what that is going to look like just yet. I'm not in the thick of it anymore and I don't know how helpful my current words are. I've been thinking a lot about the book I wrote about our journey and am wondering if y'all might be willing to take a walk down memory lane with me as a try to edit and workshop ideas and once again try to find a coherent narrative. I haven't looked at it in almost two years. That excites me and scares me. But maybe this is just the place to share and get feedback and see if I can come up with something solid.
Who's with me?